Little did I know that personal freedom comes from stepping up and taking full responsibility for life.
This lesson was a gradual process that evolved as I became aware of exactly how little power I afforded myself, and how much power I gave away. I viewed my experiences from the perspective that “someone did something to me, or something happened to me”, which meant that the course of my life was dependent on everyone and everything but me. Empowerment began when I started realizing that my perspective was my choice. Indeed, everything that happened in my adult life was because every moment I was making choices, without awareness or consciousness. Then, I began the gradual process of waking up. You know, one of those things that some of the new age gurus tell you to do without telling you how. It began to happen. Why me? Because I was open to change. Actually, I craved it.
I was living in poverty with seemingly few prospects and a history of failed relationships. I knew there was more, but I didn’t know how to change it. Fortunately, when you truly want something, the universe conspires to make it happen. I was led through a series of synchronistic events (that I could give credit to everyone who contributed, but would be remiss if I didn’t point out, even those events were because I made choices) that caused me to pay attention.
They say the only way to truly move forward is to know where you are. I am grateful I made the choice to look back and notice similarities between people and events in my life; to see patterns in my behavior. It was then I noticed that even decisions that were seemingly insignificant added shape and texture to my life.
Today, I choose. I am aware of what I am saying to myself, about myself, and how I’m shaping my life down to every bite I choose to take and every minute I waste on Facebook. I notice my language and recently have had the opportunity to take that practice deeper by being advised to notice when I say “try,” “can’t,” and “but” because those words are unconscious ways of surrendering power as well.
Choice is freedom. When you choose to own your life, taking responsibility for how you got where you are and where you’re going, the world is yours. <3